February 13, 2007 - 12:14 a.m.
I do believe I am stuck in the worse writing rut I have ever been in. I haven't written anything in months. I'm just not inspired by anything. I'm basically experiencing the same fucking day over and over.
Its like I have no control on how the day will end up. My brain just shuts down and I sit there scratching my head with a stupid fuckin look on my face. I'm not angry about it. But I am disappointed. And being disappointed in myself is not where I want, or need to be.
I can pick up a pen, and try to write words on the paper...nothing comes out. I used to just put on the radio, sit back and let the ideas flow. Maybe I'm just not challenged enough. Or maybe I'm mentally fuckin challenged. Fuck. I don't know.
Even Bush's stupid ass isn't making me want to write about his bullshit.
I'm sitting here at my computer, (like I'm ever anywhere else?), watching a bunch of whack ass white kids on a reality show called "The White Rapper". I remember the day that I coulda slayed every one of those punk bitches in one verse. Now, I got nuttin!
I "retired" from rapping a few years ago because I was disgusted with the way hip-hop is dying a slow painful death. I've complained about it before on this blog. Now I'm back with the Seedz tryin to get in the cut, and I can't even write a FUCKIN LINE! This is a sad day people..fuckin sad!
Fuck this whining shit. I'm gonna go listen to some Ice Cube. Death Certificate. Circa 1991!
